Wish...

Happy birthday Mu'iz! This is a greeting to just add a post in this month! hahaha! Ok. its my 19th birthday, so what. I dont celebrate it anyway. Damn, now im hungry in the middle of the night. And SMS are coming in - alot. All i want is fooodddd... Not SMSs. WHY?! *laugh out load* *sigh* huh.. Pretending to be happy isnt that easy i guess.

To tell you the truth, i do not celebrate my birthday. Not that I don't want it, but after more than 10years i dont celebrate my birthday so it will make me feel strange if i do celebrate. And not being a center of attention is my spot. This year, im going to escape from it. I will keep myself busy just to avoid it. But i wish, i wish that in a certain birthday of mine i will celebrate my birthday with a girl that i care most. Saying like that, in my mind, its recalling my current ex girlfriend. She was my love at first sight, and i'm her's.. I miss her. Wishing for a moment with her.. I dont care. Just a moment, both of us together. I miss her alot. Her smile. Her smell. Her lips. Her reactions. Her personality. I miss her. Even if we will be together again, we both know how its going to end. We really are from different world and the society here make us feel strange. A dissapprove from everything and sadly, she had to leave me. I dont blame her. Its nobody fault.. Huh, it is not that i cant move on, but I cant feel awhole and i dont know if i ever will again. To me, shes the perfect missing puzzle of myself..

Now i feel in love with someone, really i am, who is close to me. But.. sometimes the love part is there and sometimes not. And its making me hard weather to propose her or not, because i don't want to play someone's emotions. I guess i'll just have to wait for the right moment and the right time..

Night time:
I was punk!! And truely shock! i forgot my birthday! hahahaha!!! Only for few hours, already forgot! In my head i though it was yesterday! hahaha!

Heres the pictures!
text - after few minutes of 'decoding'! hahaha! : Happy 19th Bufday to Bro EZ. Wish you gud luck!

To my uncles, unties and ipah, thank you very much =)

To anyone who SMSs me, sorry that i can't reply to all of you guys. It's just too many. Huhuhuhu.. And thanks guys!